silence

We just put the boys to bed, and so far they have stayed there. With it being 9pm I find I have time to sit and think. Something that I rarley have too much time for, unless it's about things like, 'what are we to have for dinner?', or that I need to start my Christmas projects soon. (there are quite alot of them.) While I am sitting here my husband Aaron is doing some homework. He is FINALLY graduating in May with a Bachlors. I know your thinking, finally?. Well he has been going to school off and on for the past 11 years. So yes FINALLY. He has enough credits that he is a super duper seinor!!! We will be having a big party at the end and I'll let everyone know when exactly it is. He sits there doing homework right now, and even though I don't really understand (or really want to) what he is going into, I find myself a little jealous. Jealous of the fact that he gets to go and expand his mind while mine seems to turn to mush latley. I know that he will finish and then I get to start going, but it just seems too far away. I know your thinking that I could go to school at the same time as him, but not for what I want to go into. There would be late nights, and one of us has to be home to watch the kids. I don't regret having the kids first, no, I know they were suposed to come when they did. I just wish my brain wasn't so mushy at times. It's full of school assignments, when payment is due on what bill, will I ever get my car back, crap I have a lot of Christmas projects to get done, and such as that. Though the thoughts that are running through my mind now, will probably always be there and may get more complex as life goes on with kids, but I wish for smart things to be there too, for books to read that are not just Dr Suess. (Working on that one now with 1776.) Someday seems far away, but for now it's something I get to look forward to!